Several months ago, when electing to create a faith-based blog, there were a number of elements I’d decided from the get-go that wouldn’t feature on the site. One of those was prayer.
I’d noted while doing background research prior to building my site, that some Christian bloggers include prayers in one form or another. I considered, however, that as prayers are intimate discussions between the one praying and God, they were not for airing on an open forum such as a blog-site. I emphasise that this was simply my own view on the matter at that time. I’m not criticising those who think differently.
What follows, however, is a prayer. So what happened to change my mind?
For several months I’ve been keeping a Prayer Journal. I personally find it useful and consider that it enhances my prayer-life. As a keen writer I’ve long found that I can express myself more fully through the written word rather than the spoken one. My thoughts are more focused, I’m less distracted and the result expresses more effectively those things I wish to say.
I’ve also found there to be other assets to maintaining a prayer journal. These may be a subject for a future post.
When reading through my journal, I’m struck by how each prayer is unique, but each one follows a similar structure: praise, thanks, personal requests, intercession for others, commitment to serve and so on. Today’s prayer, however, was different.
As I wrote my prayer, the words seemed to appear on the page without pre-meditation. It was as though they were being spoken by my inner-self, without conscious thought. It was as though I was being ‘led by the spirit’. Consequently, it’s structure differs from previous examples. As does its tone. Its rhythm also differs from those on previous pages. This, together with the overall content has given me pause for thought.
Why this prayer? And why now?
If you’ve already read my previous post ‘A Question of Obedience’, you will gather that its final paragraph may be viewed as a closing chapter in my life as a Christian. One that has ended with me walking away from my church, disgusted by the establishment’s willingness to obey government rather than God. But, what am I walking towards?
I’ve no idea what the future holds. I do sense, however, that as I enter what appears to be uncharted territory, God has had this course mapped-out since before time began, and He is calling me to join Him for what lies ahead.
It is as though the past sixty-two years, with its trials, sorrows and disappointments have all led to this amazing time in history. All God asked of me was to answer His call. This morning I did just that.
Here is my prayer:
Lord Jesus, I thank you that you re-entered my life at this moment in history.
Make me your vessel.
Mould me and shape me as the potter moulds the clay.
Make me a instrument of Yours; a weapon, keenly-edged and strong for the fight to come; a fight in which I gladly serve in Your name.
Father, Your lifelong servant and my friend in Christ has told me he wants me strong in body, mind and spirit for the road ahead. I come to You in faith now. Heal me. Heal me. Lift these seizures from me, Lord. Clear my mind from their distractions, confusion and mind-weakening hold on me.
Make me strong. Make me Your warrior.
Jesus, be my shield and buckler now, my rearguard, too. I swear to You today, Lord, that I take on the full armour of God; the helmet of salvation, the breastplate of righteousness, the belt of truth. I put on the shoes of the preparation of the gospel of peace. I take up the shield of faith, the sword of the spirit which is the Word of God. I put on the garments of vengeance and the cloak of zeal.
I will not be afraid.
For I am but one in Your mighty army, Lord.
Use me as You will, Jesus, for I am Yours, devoted to the service in Your just and righteous cause, working toward a certain victory that will give glory to Your name.
Jesus, as a paladin knight on the eve of battle, I ask that You cleanse me, purify me and forgive me of all sins. I devote my life to You, Lord, with love and thanks, for I am washed by the blood of the lamb. I am Yours.
And I know that all things work together for good to those who love You; to those who are called according to Your purpose. I have been called, and I answer that call.
For You are my Commander-in-Chief and I offer my life to You, as You gave Yours for me.
Lord, I ask for Your protection for my family, my home and all in my stewardship. Protect and strengthen all my brothers and sisters in Christ – Your holy remnant in this fight, in these final days.
Lord, everything I do from this day forward, I do for You, willingly and confidently. Victory is assured.
By the blessed blood of my Lord and Saviour, I pray. Amen